To answer those who've been asking about the previous entry, it was actuali referring to four different guys, who've made some sorta 'impact' in ma life lately..
Apparently, one of them decided to write me a testi in friendster about what i wrote in ma blog..im reali surprised dat he still had my link..
Well, the testi kinda made it look like we were ex-lovers or even had something special going on between us..in fact, made it look like i was the villain of the whole 'plot'..in fact, i had frenz msging me thru' friendster itself, asking, 'is dat y u've been so heartbroken these days'??..my reaction was like, huh???..
You may ask,..den y the hell did i approve it in the first place?..i dunoe..i've got nothing to hide..hence i'm not complaining nimore..
Affa,..if you're reading this, like i said in my testi to reply to that of yours, you have always been a fren, never more & nothing less..but after yesterday, u're back to your persistent ways..im sorry to say dat maybe im juz not cut out for the kinda 'friendship' u're actuali asking for..i tried..but u juz pushed it too far..& i dunoe wat u've been telling Amirah..but it sure seems one-sided to me..terpulanglah..i've had enuff..think wat u wanna think..talk wat u wanna talk..
i've got bigger things to worry about..
..Dear God..
Been a rough start to the New Year for me..
So far, me, ma big bro & mum haf been hospitalised, or at least been to the hospital for medical attention..ALL within this month - January 2006..
What a life huh.. *SiGh*
Mine was minor..lucky..
Abang wasn't that lucky tho'..had a bike accident..mama told me wen i was at werk..panicky but didn't wanna think much of it..the thing dat bothered me most,..i already lost a dad..i dun wanna lose a brother..i can't afford that..i reali can't.. :'( the accident caused complicationz dat was an eye-opener for me..Allah tu Maha Kuasa.. :'( after hearing the doctorz explanation of his condition, i can see dat abg was trying hard to keep his cool like he alwayz has..and when the doctor left, he couldn't take it nimore & finali cried..i couldn't take it either & told him to stop crying coz dat made me cry even more..then i was thinking, kenape mesti begini?..sekiranye besar sgtlah dosa abg ku ini, jgn lah sampai dicuri ape yg ade dpd kite..memang aku bersyukur abg maseh hidop..tapi kenape dgn penyiksaan sebegini??.. these were the thotz that ran thru' my mind..onli God knows how we were all feeling then..
Alhamdulillah,..mine & mama's prayerz were answered..he didn't have to go thru' an op that could have forever damaged his whole life..alhamdulillah..
Mama,..the one who's been my strength..my life..literally..
She juz went thru' a minor surgery last two wks..now, she has to undergo two more operationz on the 1st & 7th next month..7th being a critical operation that she has no choice of saying 'no' to..even the doctor apologised for the complication caused..the doctor said it should have been done the first tym around & not have wasted any more tym testing instead..gosh..i'd wanna be mad at the doctor but should i?..ppl make mistakes..hanya takdir yg menentukan..mama has been through so much..& now more?..hasn't she been put through enough???..raising us since young..alone..no one to turn to..all the obstacles..aren't they enough???..im not condemning HIS actionz but i wonder for how much longer.. :'(
Apparently, one of them decided to write me a testi in friendster about what i wrote in ma blog..im reali surprised dat he still had my link..
Well, the testi kinda made it look like we were ex-lovers or even had something special going on between us..in fact, made it look like i was the villain of the whole 'plot'..in fact, i had frenz msging me thru' friendster itself, asking, 'is dat y u've been so heartbroken these days'??..my reaction was like, huh???..
You may ask,..den y the hell did i approve it in the first place?..i dunoe..i've got nothing to hide..hence i'm not complaining nimore..
Affa,..if you're reading this, like i said in my testi to reply to that of yours, you have always been a fren, never more & nothing less..but after yesterday, u're back to your persistent ways..im sorry to say dat maybe im juz not cut out for the kinda 'friendship' u're actuali asking for..i tried..but u juz pushed it too far..& i dunoe wat u've been telling Amirah..but it sure seems one-sided to me..terpulanglah..i've had enuff..think wat u wanna think..talk wat u wanna talk..
i've got bigger things to worry about..
..Dear God..
Been a rough start to the New Year for me..
So far, me, ma big bro & mum haf been hospitalised, or at least been to the hospital for medical attention..ALL within this month - January 2006..
What a life huh.. *SiGh*
Mine was minor..lucky..
Abang wasn't that lucky tho'..had a bike accident..mama told me wen i was at werk..panicky but didn't wanna think much of it..the thing dat bothered me most,..i already lost a dad..i dun wanna lose a brother..i can't afford that..i reali can't.. :'( the accident caused complicationz dat was an eye-opener for me..Allah tu Maha Kuasa.. :'( after hearing the doctorz explanation of his condition, i can see dat abg was trying hard to keep his cool like he alwayz has..and when the doctor left, he couldn't take it nimore & finali cried..i couldn't take it either & told him to stop crying coz dat made me cry even more..then i was thinking, kenape mesti begini?..sekiranye besar sgtlah dosa abg ku ini, jgn lah sampai dicuri ape yg ade dpd kite..memang aku bersyukur abg maseh hidop..tapi kenape dgn penyiksaan sebegini??.. these were the thotz that ran thru' my mind..onli God knows how we were all feeling then..
Alhamdulillah,..mine & mama's prayerz were answered..he didn't have to go thru' an op that could have forever damaged his whole life..alhamdulillah..
Mama,..the one who's been my strength..my life..literally..
She juz went thru' a minor surgery last two wks..now, she has to undergo two more operationz on the 1st & 7th next month..7th being a critical operation that she has no choice of saying 'no' to..even the doctor apologised for the complication caused..the doctor said it should have been done the first tym around & not have wasted any more tym testing instead..gosh..i'd wanna be mad at the doctor but should i?..ppl make mistakes..hanya takdir yg menentukan..mama has been through so much..& now more?..hasn't she been put through enough???..raising us since young..alone..no one to turn to..all the obstacles..aren't they enough???..im not condemning HIS actionz but i wonder for how much longer.. :'(
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