Haiz..had a hearty talk wif mama again..juz finished crying..we both cried..not da first tym..guess da person whom we once loved & cared so much for,..has changed tremendously..

Pandai dia bermain kate..pandai dia berpura..bak puloh perindu, hanye manis dibibir saje..

Correct me if im wrong wif da use of language above..im not dat good but i tink u guyz get da msg..thot i can continue being hapi after ma party..but no..mama kept mentioning abt her surprise & disappointment in someone i dun wish to even noe in da first place..apekan daya, nasik dah menjadi bubor..

"Sometimes the people who you thought you knew,..start becoming the strangers you never wanted.." - A quote which meanz alot to me..met alot of ppl who comez & go as they like..ppl who change significantly dat u wish u hadn't known them in da first place..

Haiz..

Had a migraine attack again..pikiran..so many thingz bothering me..feel like running away from all ma probz but to where?..& for how long?..too many thingz happened these past few monthz..so hard to cope..but im surviving..alhamdulillah..been in & out of depression mode once too many tymz..lost two men who mattered in ma life this year..such a blow..trying to move on..which i do want to, but afraid to do so..afraid to take da risk of getting hurt again..

Darn..

It really hurts when you expected so much more from the person you once loved so much..
really does..


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